Poppycock and Sunshine

The adventures of a crazy girl trying to live a quiet, slower Provincial lifestyle in an hectic, fast paced, American society.

The Planets Must Hate Me June 28, 2010

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“I’m very brave generally”, he went on in a low voice: “Only today I happen to have a headache.” -Lewis Carroll

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This was the scene from my past 4 days……

I had the worst migraine I have had in a while. And while I usually get a migraine with my period, a migraine that lasts for 4 days is unusual. And horribly wretched. I hate the feeling of uselessness that comes with having to be in bed during the day with the shades pulled tight and the sleeping mask over my eyes. I also had to work on Friday night, which was grueling to say the least.

But today is Monday….. the end to my period and I’m happy to say, my migraine as well. Apparently  there was some crazy activity with the planets aligning in a funky manner or something, and there was a lunar eclipse Saturday early morning. That figures. My body always freaks out when the planets do anything different. I would like to say I understand all that about alignment and whatnot, but I don’t. I only know I have kooky things happen when they do. Like a 4 day headache.

This was my day today, peaceful and slow…. mustn’t push anything, you know….

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Monday Monday November 10, 2009

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“Sounds like someone has a case of the Mondays.”- The Office

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It was one of those days today. Monday. Raining. Pouring actually. And I could not seem to get out of bed. Daniel came back from the fight gym this morning wanting to know if I wanted to go get Hawaiian food. My answer was rolling over and covering my head with the covers. And moaning. I do believe there was moaning. And that is basically how the rest of the day went for me. Butt dragging the entire day.

And then there’s this whole blog posting every day. It’s not as easy as one would think. In fact, it’s really quite difficult. Difficult to find something interesting to blog about. Every. Single. Day. So my apologies in advance for some of these days. I’m sure I’ll be scrapping the bottom of the creative barrel at times. Terribly sorry. This being one of those scrapings.

I’m blaming it on Monday.

 

Happiness October 15, 2009

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“It is the sweet, simple things of life which are the real ones after all.”

Laura Ingalls Wilder (Little House in the Ozarks by Hines)

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Happiness in a cup:

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Happiness in a vase:

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Happiness in book form:

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What happens to be making you happy this fine day?

 

Reflective Thursday July 23, 2009

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“It is better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else’s life with perfection.” – The Bhagavad Gita (an ancient Indian Yogic text) 

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I have just finished this book.

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I loved it.

To say I loved it  is quite an understatement really. It’s one of those books I could read over and over and over again and not ever get tired of the words. It made me think a good deal about my own life, as I’m sure it did for the million other people around the world who read it. The author takes herself on a search for the meaning of pleasure, devotion, and balance. All of which are very thought provoking subjects for me lately. I have been in a bit of a search mode, it seems.

What should I be doing with my life???

Always the eternal question.

As if what I’m doing with my life is never enough.

I was raised with a mother who never sat still. Always going, going, going. I sit still quite a lot. And would have to admit there is a good amount of guilt involved with that sitting as well. “I should be up doing this, I should be out doing that.” Except, is that what I really want? Or rather is it just my mother’s voice ever resonating in my head?

I love my mother, don’t get me wrong. But she and I are two completely different people.  What revs her engine of life and motivation has absolutely no stimulating result on mine. But whatever it is, it’s still there, in the back of my head all the same. And frankly, it annoys the hell out of me.

All this I finally realized this morning. I rose roughly around the delightful hour of noon, stumbled into my kitchen after kissing the sweetie good day. I slipped easily into my daily ritual of coffee, made lovingly lately in my personal stovetop espresso maker, one of the first gifts Daniel ever gave me. I sat there groggy, waiting for the water to rise in temperature, waiting for the rewarding hissing and popping noise of the darkly delicious liquid spouting up into the metal carafe. I love days like today. It’s Thursday, which is always my day off. I  feel especially satisfied with my laziness on my days off, as if it’s my right or something. Every other day I always feel the slight or sometimes not-so-slight tug of guilt. The coffee finishes and I settle into the sofa, book in hand, smile on the lips. Before I realize it, the coffee is finished and so is the book. This book in which the author takes a year and dedicates it to prayer, reflection, pleasure….. basically a year she dedicated to herself. It was a life of balance. A life of simplicity. And so it was this morning, after pondering the details and images and lessons about life that this book evokes, that I had my epiphany about my life and my mother. 

I don’t have to be going a hundred miles an hour like she does to have a fulfilled and happy life. 

I don’t need anything more in my life to make it better. It’s fabulous just the way it is.

I don’t need some crazy career that takes me away from home 50 hours a week. 

I do not require a perfectly clean and organized home (which, I might add, I am not in the least bit able to accomplish anyways) to have a happy life. 

Let’s run through life as I know it, shall we:

I have a comfortable home in which I live. 

I have a man that loves me and supports me mentally and emotionally in a way I never knew possible. 

I eat VERY well. Every two hours, in fact.

I have a family of friends that surround me with love and entertainment. 

I have my health. 

What more do I need? What more should I want? Nothing. The only thing missing really is one thing. 

Allowing myself to be content with these things. And I am, content. I have everything I need. The rest is just frosting. Sure there are things that I still want to do for self improvement. But really, the only thing I want to do lately is just be content. Content with this life of simplicity. 

 

 

Is It Really Almost August?!?! July 18, 2009

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I can’t believe it. It’s 2 weeks till the wedding. Holy crap. 

Dress: check

Shoes: check

Wedding rings: check

Pretty red flowers to wear in the hair: check check

Marriage License: Oh dear. Haven’t gotten that yet, but I think I still have a little time. Definitely something to put in the Moleskine, on the “To Do” list. 

Something old: my dress is used, so I’m thinking that counts.

Something new: my shoes.

Something borrowed: Does someone have an old picnic basket they would like to lend me??

Something blue: Daniel’s eyes. Not sure if they count. Pretty much grasping at straws at this point. 

 

In two weeks, I shall be posting pictures of me in a pretty wedding dress with flowers in my hair. Until then. 

 

 

Shit. May 10, 2009

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“Why love if losing hurts so much? I have no answers anymore; only the life I have lived. The pain now is part of the happiness then.”

-Anthony Hopkins

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I received a heart wrenching email from an old friend today. It was one of those things that just hits you over the head as if with a large, sturdy baseball bat. I had sent her this fluffy and to be frank, nauseating, email about how I’m getting married again and wouldn’t I just love to send her an invitation to the reception. Fluff. That’s all it was. The nerve of me. This was a dear friend…. someone who at one time has been as close as a sister to me. We  were in diapers together. I was there for the birth of her first 2 children. We were there for each other through everything. But this is also someone who I have not spoken to in a year. Her email was understandably wrought with pain. And hurt. And confusion. Where have I been the past 3 years? Why did I pull away from her? Her sister abandoned her.

I feel terrible. Why did I do this. How could I do this. The whole thing has really made me look within myself and think about things I’d rather not. 

She was my maid of honor. At my last wedding. Of the second marriage that failed. And when it all fell apart, I shut down. I had nothing left. I had nothing left for her. I don’t know what I can do about that.

I feel as if I just fumble my way through life. All I can do is apologize to those who are drug along for the ride. Apologize for being a horrible friend. For not having anything more to give. For saving the last little bit that I did have for the preserving of myself. The preserving of my sanity. Your psyche has strange ways of dealing with loss and pain. Sometimes it just shuts it all off at the main breaker. It’s the armadillo. Time to curl up into a tight ball and protect yourself. Do not expose yourself again for fear you will feel more pain and loss than you already do. And so you shut down. You don’t call. You don’t write. You hurt someone you love.

I don’t think she’ll be coming to the reception. I think I can understand why.

 

I’ve Had One of Those Days….. May 7, 2009

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You know ….. one of those days. When everything is just poop.

 

I’ve had a wretched headache the past few days that I cannot seem to shake. 

 

Apart from having the wretched headache, I was bored to death today. But didn’t feel well enough to do something with which to appease said boredom.

 

I managed to sit on my bamboo knitting needles this evening, breaking them with my rather rotund bottom. Which now means, not only do I have to return to the Yarn Shop for another pair of size 8 needles, Charlie ate those, but now I have to add another pair of size 7 to the list as well. Gah.

 

Not only was I bored today, with no energy to do much of anything, but this not doing much of anything meant that I couldn’t go to the gym. Which does nothing for that rotund bottom of mine. The rotund arse that broke the knitting needles, I might remind you. Balls. Now I really feel like I didn’t accomplish anything.

 

I also thought I might have broke my computer today as well, which gave me quite a fright. Never fear. Obviously you can deduct it was a false alarm. That would have made the day just BRILLIANT.

 

So what does one do when one has had such a day, you might ask? Well, I’ll tell you what I did. I made myself a proper cup of Hot Chocolate. That’s right, I used the last of my daily points for a hot chocolate. Points? Yes, points. I’m on Weight Watchers, you see. Or as I like to lovingly call it for the Little Britain fans amongst us, Fat Fighters. Never seen Little Britain, you say? Tsk. Get right on that. Brilliant program indeed. Anyways, I digress. I’ve been working out religiously for 3 months now and have managed to GAIN 10 pounds. Something’s wrong with this picture. I have started a new medication as well, which I think really did the damage. Something had to be done. Anyways. This hot chocolate I was telling you about…. worth every point!

 

First you take a chocolate bar…..

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Then you add milk…..

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Now normally I would add a hot red chili to this as well and let it steep, but having zero chilies in the house, decided it would have to be plain. Plain and tasty.

 

That’s right. Nothing fixes a day like today like a lovely vintage mug filled with rich chocolatey  goodness. Indeed.

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I feel better already.